I very much dislike the title of this post, but if I'm going to be honest, it's the perfect word to describe our life at the moment. Often times we are consumed by our schedule...work, school, karate lessons, Rob's school, etc. And yes, I know this is redundant. More often lately I've been consumed by my grief. Not really knowing how I should feel or act at any certain time. Am I mad, sad, depressed, happy? Honestly sometimes I really don't know. I miss my mom so much. I don't know what to do with my grief. Sometimes I walk in circles around the house, whereas other times I'm productive. It's a maze that only I can find my way out of...in time I'm sure. However, what I do know is that I have so many reasons to be rejoicing and happy. I have a wonderful husband, amazing children, supportive friends and family. I also can rejoice knowing that my mom is in Heaven watching us go about our daily lives. I know she is proud. She always worked so hard to support her family and so I know she is proud of me for working hard to support mine.
This post is totally random, but that's how my mind is functioning lately. It feels good to have this outlet for my feelings because so often I don't know how to discuss or talk about them.
In lighter news...my sisters and I went to the pumpkin patch a few weeks ago, and Beth got some really great pictures of the kids.
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| This train makes a killing! $3 per child per ride! It appears at all the major parades and festivals in Lynden, and is a crowd favorite. Last spring at the Heritage Festival, the conductor made me ride...then he made my friend Anya's mom Karen ride too...I think we were both nauseous by the time it was over. |
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Miss Jack, Mr. Jovie :)
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Jack...5 years of standing in front of this sign. My mom always insisted on making sure we took his picture in front of this sign. I can always look back on these pictures and think of her.
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