I very much dislike the title of this post, but if I'm going to be honest, it's the perfect word to describe our life at the moment. Often times we are consumed by our schedule...work, school, karate lessons, Rob's school, etc. And yes, I know this is redundant. More often lately I've been consumed by my grief. Not really knowing how I should feel or act at any certain time. Am I mad, sad, depressed, happy? Honestly sometimes I really don't know. I miss my mom so much. I don't know what to do with my grief. Sometimes I walk in circles around the house, whereas other times I'm productive. It's a maze that only I can find my way out of...in time I'm sure. However, what I do know is that I have so many reasons to be rejoicing and happy. I have a wonderful husband, amazing children, supportive friends and family. I also can rejoice knowing that my mom is in Heaven watching us go about our daily lives. I know she is proud. She always worked so hard to support her family and so I know she is proud of me for working hard to support mine.
This post is totally random, but that's how my mind is functioning lately. It feels good to have this outlet for my feelings because so often I don't know how to discuss or talk about them.
In lighter news...my sisters and I went to the pumpkin patch a few weeks ago, and Beth got some really great pictures of the kids.
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| This train makes a killing! $3 per child per ride! It appears at all the major parades and festivals in Lynden, and is a crowd favorite. Last spring at the Heritage Festival, the conductor made me ride...then he made my friend Anya's mom Karen ride too...I think we were both nauseous by the time it was over. |
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Miss Jack, Mr. Jovie :)
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Jack...5 years of standing in front of this sign. My mom always insisted on making sure we took his picture in front of this sign. I can always look back on these pictures and think of her.
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6 comments:
i've been thinking about you lately. still praying for you! your mom was such a beautiful, fabulous, caring woman. you are a lot like her joelle! so she continues to live on!
Praying for you...your mom is in such a wonderful place, but I know that doesn't take away that ache in your heart. That pumpkin patch just calls my name. Such cute pictures of your kids. The pumpkin patches around here just don't measure up! Miss you girl!
I've been praying for you ever since I saw you at the salon the other day...been thinking about you a lot. Love you and your family.
Very well stated about walking in circles and not knowing how to deal with your grief. I too find some days I don't know if I am mad, sad, depressed, or happy. My feelings too are all over the place. I find comfort in the fact that this must be normal. You are so blessed to have such a great family surrounding you. You are doing a great job! Sometimes I wonder if our moms are sitting up there watching all of us girls do life without them?
Love you Joelle! You are your family are in our prayers, and we can't wait to be your neighbors!!!
OK I would totally pay 3 dollars to ride that train! SWEET! How inventive! I equally love the how tall this fall sign! I love the Day Family Updates! :) Hang in there friend, your in my thoughts!
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